Attitudes about suicidal ideation
Content warning: The content of this post may be triggering for some.
I have been the target of a very aggressive cyberbullying campaign that has gone on for over two years, escalating recently when I called out some of the behaviour. It is over identity politics. These are only a few screenshots of accounts on Twitter who lied about me and harrassed me and called me the abuser, when they were abusing. I was tagged labels such as 'bigot' and 'transphobic' for more bullies to attack.
When my account was locked, I admitted to my followers that I had severe suicidal ideation. I have experienced this many times. I am diagnosed bioplar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder - all activated with the recent cyberbulling campaign. My admission of suicidal ideation was leaked and mocked by accounts I had blocked who were lying and gossiping about me.
What it boiled down to, is that accounts claiming to be 'actually autistic' were mad at me because I no longer call myself autistic. One of the reasons I don't, is because I don't want to be associated with the fraudtistics and bullies.
[Update: I still won't call myself 'autistic', after a psychiatrist has since formally diagnosed me with pervasive developmental disorder - not otherwise specified, PDD-NOS, with clinically significant autism spectrum features since childhood (including mutism). PDD-NOS is still a current diagnosis in New Zealand.]
I am no longer blogging or vlogging as a mental health and disability advocate. The politics of it is too toxic for me.