I have been the target of a very aggressive cyberbullying campaign that has gone on for over two years, escalating recently when I called out some of the behaviour. It is all over identity politics. These are only a few screenshots of accounts on Twitter who lied about me and harrassed me and called me the abuser, when they were abusing.
When my account was locked, I admitted to my followers that I had severe suicidal ideation. I experience this frequently. I am diagnosed bioplar 1 disorder, post-trauamatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder - all activated with the recent cyberbulling campaign. My admission of suicidal ideation was leaked and mocked by accounts I had blocked who were lying and gossiping about me.
Four accounts (including some of the above) also left malicious fake reviews on my memoir. Amazon has removed one so far. I have been called lots of names and lied about again and again. I was admitted to hospital for tests for suspected heart attack from the cyberbullying after being referred to the crisis team. Doctors said it was PTSD and anxiety constantly activated from the stress.
I was going to cover their names but decided not to. About a month ago, I decided I would no longer shield those who are abusive to me.
This is the attitude towards someone in distress because of their identity politics (neurodiversity, gender ideology). They have labelled me ableist transphobic to try to justify their abuse. These accounts project onto vulnerable people and have been very stigmatising about my mental health struggles.
I don't tell anyone most of the time I am in distress. I fight it alone because of shitty attitudes like this. This is a disgusting way to treat a vulnerable person. I have many other screenshots of the abuse.
I recorded a video a while back about reasons for suicide. Based on how I had felt when I had severe suicidal ideation. I won't be making further videos as the cyberbullying from the above accounts plus many others as a mob have been too detrimental for my health. I will be leaving hundreds of videos I made up on Bipolar Courage on You Tube as a resource.
Xanthe finds creative expression including writing and painting to be therapeutic and helps her to manage her diagnoses of bipolar disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).