I recently published a memoir, Bipolar Cringe, about the hypersexuality of bipolar mania with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Written, at the time, before I was diagnosed correctly. Left raw and minimally edited.
For the past few years, I have been subjected to targeted harassment because I no longer identify as autistic. When I wrote the memoir, I identified as Aspie/Aspergers and autistic. Social justice warriors on Twitter took offence over their identify politics and targeted my book with malicious reviews. This was part of a massive mob cyberbullying attack by strangers. The following screenshots are only a small sample of the abuse.
This was one of the many insults, when I supported an autistic woman with different political views to the mob:
This account indicated that was an alt account of the above account, threatening to attack my books. I was called 'transphobic' because I didn't believe in xenogenders (cloudgender, frostgender, aliengender etc).
After I blocked that account, they made an account especially for me:
Amanda is an account that sucked up to a big account I had a disagreement with. She armchair diagnosed me, insisting I am misdiagnosed with bipolar and am 'obviously' autistic. She lied and gossiped about me and is buddies with the other accounts who left malicious reviews. What is disturbing is this person is claiming to study psychology to become a clinician, yet she was very abusive towards me. She needs to do some more study and learn about projection - when one accuses someone else of what they are themselves eg a bully.
Here, we have a female shaming another female's sexuality. Plus doesn't have a clue about bipolar disorder, trauma and hypersexuality. I discovered that I can have squirting orgasms before surgery. No, it's not pee. Mania orgasms are incredibly intense. Seems Amanda hasn't experienced something, therefore mocks other women who have.
Yes, I updated my Amazon page as this group of trolls were boasting publicly on Twitter that they were going to leave bad reviews, even without reading my book.
According to some neurodiversity advocates, 'Aspie' and 'Aspergers' are slurs. I decided not to edit them out of the book as that would be dishonest. They will not accept that my clinicians decided I have traits only, better explained by other diagnoses.
Another stranger offended that I didn't edit out Aspie. My book is a good case against self-diagnosis, which they promote as valid. I have been gossiped and lied about for the past two years, because I no longer call myself autistic.
Anyone who knows bipolar with PTSD, would know that grammar can be awkward. This person would make a terrible clinician. There is no plot, because it wasn't a novel. Name calling etc.
So, it was okay to publicly gossip and lie about me if I was given nasty names?
This person claims to be doing a MSc at one of the 'top' universities for psychiatry and psychology in the UK. Amanda complained in her Amazon review that my book 'jumped around'. She does not seem to understand that trauma processing does not take place in sequential order. I was trying to process the demise of my two decade marriage when I wrote the memoir. Amanda should not be counselling vulnerable people. She also accused me of hating autistic people. More projection.
Claims to be late diagnosed autistic.
Amanda claimed to have done crisis counselling. Yet, called me abusive because the bullying triggered my PTSD and social anxiety to severe suicidal ideation. This group all called me abusive for admitting I had suicidal ideation.
Has pre-decided that I am a bigot. Does not give a fair book review.
My account was locked. A few people ran to them to try to stop things. I blocked some accounts who did this, as it made things worse. I was subjected to mob harassment, yet this account is complaining about harassment when a few people said to stop.
I was labelled a TERF (trans exclusionary radical feminist), which is a label to identify a woman to subject to violent attacks. This account lied about me multiple times.
'Internalised ableism' is what this lot accuse me of. Projection. "Will not be intimidated into silence." Yet aimed to do that with me. I now have my Twitter account permanently locked, as their abuse affected my health.
My doctor called the crisis team who told me to contact the police. Crash claimed my book had child endangerment and beastiality. I left the book raw. These people preach disability rights, yet when a disabled person self-publishes a book that doesn't conform to their ideology, they are ableist themselves.
More projection. Glitter is part of the same group, announcing that only reading the book as pissed off with me. Ironically, they were promoting the book. I hadn't promoted it other than a few mentions on social media. Bad publicity is still publicity, so they say.
Crash does an awful lot of projection. Hypocrite, too.
More bitching by strangers, part of the same group.
Labelled a bigot. Projection, again.
Should I be slightly amused that someone who admitted publicly that never had sex read my book about sex?
Encouraging malicious reviews. Plus, there's that ableism again, discriminating against my disabilities.
Dismissing suicidal ideation, which I didn't make public.
More ableism by an advocate who preaches against ableism. Also, it wasn't a novel. It was a raw account, like stream-of-consciousness. It's very challenging for me to organise words in a way that others can understand me.
Bipolar disorder has a lot of stigma. If one has the courage to show what it's really like then some people are judgmental. One of the trolls also left an obviously fake review on my novel, Pet Purpose: Your Unspoken Voice. Pet Purpose is a more polished book, also about love and loss with bipolar and PTSD. I spent years sequencing, rewriting and editing Pet Purpose.
I don't have a big marketing budget nor have I tried traditional publishers. Pet Purpose went to #1 in category (biographical fiction) during a promotion. Bipolar Cringe went to #2 in categories (memoir and psychological pathologies) during the promotion which has nearly ended. I spent $5 to list my book for a giveaway with eBookDaily. Hopefully, some of the people who downloaded and read the book will leave a fair rating and review.
Xanthe finds creative expression including writing and painting to be therapeutic and helps her to manage her diagnoses of bipolar disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).