Content warning: This blogpost has content that may be triggering.
Update: I have been doxxed and swatted this past week. Doxxing is releasing personal identifying information with malicious intent. Swatting is is criminal harrassment intimidation tactic of sending police to someone's home. I've committed no crimes and the constable even apologised that he had to make the call.
I've been sitting on a cesspool of screenshots from mob cyberbullying I experienced by neurodiversity ideology extremists. in August and September 2021. It was the worst some said they had ever seen. Turned out I had way over 2,000 abusive screenshots from this time, which I have narrowed down to approximately 100. It was triggering to go through them.
I decided, as I turn my back on advocacy (including mental health, autism spectrum, disability), that I will upload some of the screenshots here. I don't want to include this triggering content into the memoir I am working on. I risk fallout sharing this. Any drama that might happen as a result, I am not engaging with, going forward.
I am certain the mobbing was orchestrated, to punish me for calling out a neurodiversity advocate. It was over two screenshots of my tweets. One was my saying self-diagnosis is unwise. The other, more viscious attack was over my sarcastically saying that I don't believe in xenogenders (frostgender, bunnygender etc). Max and Queerly were some of the main troublemakers, totally stirring up drama and lying so that I was piled on (dog-pile) by strangers.
I was called a 'TERF' (trans-exclusionary radical feminist), which I do not identify as. I was also repeatedly asssumed to be a 'white' 'cis' woman (I am mixed Maori-European and don't care for the label 'cis'). I was labelled 'transphobic', 'racist', 'antisemitic', 'bigot' and a 'bully' to put a target on my back. There were multiple lies about me from those who preach 'inclusivity'.
The term 'terf' is used in a derogatory way to identify who to mob-bully. By the way, some transsexuals (yes still wanting to be identified as such) defended me against the abuse of new wave of 'trans' (which these days can easily opt in and out of with no commitment to anything permanent).
The online bullies like to identify as disabled, with no clincially significant impairment. The bullies blame those who are actually in minority demographics as 'oppressors'. These bullies have set back the work and sacrifice that has been done for decades, with their hate in the form of bullying actual vulnerable people.
This identity politics fad (including 'neurodiversity') is imploding in on itself. I'm not fighting it. I can't be bothered anymore. I don't even need to fight it. They're all fighting amongst themselves. They will lead to their own destruction. Unforunately, harming those who do need real support along the way.
I used to be friends with Charlie. She approved of what happened. She also recently doxxed me and someone else. Doxxing is making identifying private information public with malicious intent. I see this as unethical and a form of abuse and bullying.
I genuinely considered Charlie to be a friend and we confided in each other, until I found out I was dumped from a public gossipsing and backstabbing session. Even now, there is repeated public backstabbing of me, accusing me of being a 'harrasser'. Drama queen. It's no wonder I have trust issues with "friends" like these.
All the screenshots in this post were public by the mostly anonymous accounts, so no doxxing has taken place.
This incident of cybermobbing actually started after a disagreement with Charlie's pal, Pete. Amanda, also a pal of Pete was one of the main ringleaders. I have no recollection of ever talking to her. She and others left malicious reviews on my self-published books, announcing that would do so before even reading. Pete and his supporters announced there was no such thing as 'cancel culture', while this was happening.
Even though we are no longer friends, I want to thank Kitty and her supporters for defending me. It's overwhelming being attacked by hundreds of strangers at once. I am not on Twitter now, mainly because it's too open to mob-bullying. It's taken me a long time to process the abuse, and start to move forward, away from the drama from all this toxic identity politics. Identify as what you like but don't expect me to be an ally. Done with all this crap - the manipulation, the lies, the hate the smear campaigns by those desperate for validation. I don't have the energy to care about it anymore. I am certain others feel the same. These activists have done untold damage to autism advocacy, disability advocacy etc.
My psychologist said that people bully, to try make themselves feel superior. As they don't feel good about themselves, so they try tear others down. The bullies even memed a selfie when I showed I wasn't doing well. The doctored the pic with a fake smile, so mock and spread wide and far. There was also gaslighting as part of the abuse, including accusing me of being abusive for experiencing severe suicidal ideation as a result of the attacks.
I am on the autism spectrum (PDD-NOS diagnosis) but choose no longer to identify as 'autistic'. Partly because I don't want to be associated with these bullies who claim to be autistic. One of the reasons this abuse was so aggressive, which extended to malicious fake reviews on my self-published books, was because I stopped calling myself autistic. You can't win with them - will hate you either way if go against the indoctrination.
Sweet dogpile & no such thing as cancel culture
selection of screenshots
Some of the abuse, in no particular order (some were replies to people who defended me):
There are loads more screenshots but I think you get the idea. This is my last blog post for this blog. I am not interested in identity potitics wars. I am done with advocacy. I am skeptical whenever I hear the word 'inclusive'.
I didn't upload all the selection I had pulled out from thousands of screenshots. It was too triggering. I still cry when I see the last pic uploaded. I usually hide my distress and pain to the extreme. I had to call the crisis line. I had active suicidal ideation.
Seeing this makes me cry too. The screenshots below is from my medical records (words from a doctor). Those bullies would have rejoiced, like I saw some rejoice over bullying someone else. Ironically, some whom preach against bullying are the biggest bullies. Ideology can be toxic. I have observed it for years. I'm done now.
This is a journal entry after I made it through the night with intervention with the mental health crisis team and after I talked to the doctor in the morning. I stubbornly didn't end it because I had to expose these bullies, even though it was triggering and anxiety-inducing to do so.
Someone in a bipolar support group who didn't know what was going on sensed I was in distress. This was within hours from being on the phone with the crisis team. Someone from overseas. I can't even remember who it was, but I am still touched by it. Was like intuition.
the gaslighting & abuse continued
This piece of garbage was sent to me via Facebook:
Locked before deleting
Profile pic was changed to fan art (sent to encourage me).
Attitudes towards suicidal ideation. (from the above events)
Mob cyberbullying - anatomy of a dogpile. (breakdown of the how the dogpile happened)
That's it for this blog. The end. Will leave it up for now with the Bipolar Courage vlog (not adding new content to it).
Manipulation in autism and disability advocacy (I was reported to the police).
New beginnings without advocacy. (I am no longer doing advocacy as I can't be bothered with the toxicity, already decided before the further smear campaigns etc)
This cough in this video was actually from shortness of breath which got worse. Not long after recording this video, I was hospitalised being tested for heart attack (shortness of breath as one of the main symptoms). Doctors concluded it was anxiety from PTSD.
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I am no longer blogging or vlogging as a mental health and disability advocate. The politics of it is too toxic for me.